bukan homesick okay.

Bismillahirahmanirrahim, 

It sure is Allah SWT's great power to allow me to have reached here this 16,452 km far from my home. Life has totally changed; I had not woken up in the same bed, eaten the same food, seen the same faces or even breathed the same smell of the nature for seven days now. 

Exciting? 

Not as much as I imagined.

Scary ke?

Erm not really.

So, it's fun then?

*flying away*

I still remember Ibu's face as I was about to enter the KLIA escalator of fame la konon. She was looking at me with so many emotions I can't interpret till now, long and still - as if the world had stopped for a while. It was hours before that we had a lil misunderstanding about hand-carry bag I should bring. Just during the evening before, she bought a half-a-thousand ringgit Camel Active bag for me. Excluded the long John, winter pants and things else she bought only for me by her own money. So, I refused to bring the bag because I want her to have it. 

"Ibu, dah berapa kali dah Ya cakap, tak boleh bawak extra beg. Tak boleh!"

She didn't reply and stood quietly beside me; given up to my stubbornness. 

It is to my utmost surprise (totally is) that I didn't shed a single tear that day. I don't know why, I don't know how I did it. I easily cry at almost everything as simple as Toy Story 3 or Chemistry test result you know. Chemistry test tu over sket but I do have this deep and intense feelings for cartoons. Seriously. Well, not that I watch every single cartoon, but if there are movies to pick, cartoon wins any day without fail. This brought about my selection of movie during my flight:

Has anyone watched this movie?? Has anyone in this entire helpless world, regardless of any circumstances and challenges they have to face in order to use their few hours in life, to watch this???

Sya, jangan over sangat please.

This movie has brought down my ego-made shield. The mother, Queen Ellinor reminds me every bit of Ibu. And that beautiful-haired *ehem* daughter seems to have copycat my style and characters *ehem*. The mother is so much like Ibu that their voice sound the same! Or maybe it's just me I don't know. While the daughter is so rebellious and immature that I pun rasa kesian the mother dapat anak macam tu :P By the way, I will not attempt to write a synopsis here about the movie because you should watch it by yourself. But at my side, I believe Allah SWT has many diligent ways to open the eyes of the hearts to see what should have been seen in better way. I know I had seen so many love around me before in my own house but the appreciation goes beyond the miles between one another. 

So, this post is for you, Ibu, I have always missed you, no matter how far or this close we were once upon a fine day ago :) 

It also goes to you too, Abah. I know you miss me cos Kak Ngah said you were talking about me all the way to Langkawi a day after I flew off hihi. 

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO :)