you know who you are

result dah dapat.

dah takde idea nak tulis. hehe.

(after an hour of thinking)

i never failed before. i mean, i did, but there was no large decrease that could have these following effects; i lost 2 kg in a week, had an average 2 hours of sleep daily, had myself keep silent for more than an hour in the middle of the crowd (never happened before), had myself wandered around school compound aimlessly everyday. to make it short, i never had lost my own self before due to any academic result.

but i come to realize, or to read from Twitter

The Prophet (PBUH) said: "When Allah desires good for someone, He tries him with hardships."

[Sahîh al-Bukhârî]

so you see, what happened last week doesn't come with anything but hikmah. there is simply no doubt that any event takes place in life is another lesson to be learnt.

one of the greatest, greatest lesson i gained last week would be from my own very own classmate. i don't care if you are going or will never read this, but do know that i completely admire the whole new side of you uncovered when you are tested by Him with the result. macamana ha nak cakap. the words you spoken, the look in the face u've shown to the others and the smile you given, all those things macam gempakkk sangat tau tak. you are in the middle of His test, a very difficult one but the person i see macam superhuman pulak. u never shown a shed of tears to anyone. you look very, very strong. my friend, ni nak cakap ni, you are superb tau tak. you were good in Sem 1 for your result but in Sem 2 you are way better for your personality. i don't sympathise you, instead i am jealous that Allah had tested you this way, indicating that there will a veryyy veryyy veryyy only-He-knows good payback in the future. your patience, positive thoughts, self-control, strength and other amazing values macam bagus ahhhhhh. with that kind of personality and value my friend, i am inspired by you. we are actually in the same boat, but i am no way near as strong as you are. nak cakap lagi, jangan risau ahhh pape pasal university placement la ranking la mende la, because to me, and i believe to anyone else, university mana taknak orang hebak macam ni?! insyaAllah Allah akan permudahkan jalan untuk kau/awak/kamu lepas ni. wallahu'alam macamana cara Dia nak buat, but huallahuakbar kan. so, hang in there my friend, good things await for you :)

ps/ kitorang semua kagum dengan kau/awak/kamu. proud to be your classmate :D