red HBDI colour wins over blue with close margin this time

bismillahirahmaanirraheem. in the name of Allah, the most loving.

this post is for those have the adjective as a noun for an ajnabi.

for those who are currently restraining themselves from themselves.

for whose heart beats differently because of the feeling they didn't ask for,

for whose brain fails to interpret things using logic and rationale anymore.

this post is for those who are waiting for the something very uncertain yet they still find themselves waiting. 

for those who are frightened by the uncertainties yet they still want to take the risk.

what a mujahid/ah you are. 

I read somewhere days ago someone says "Do not be jealous of people who are in relationship before marriage. Be jealous of people who are not because they have high imaan." People feel. That's very normal. It's not about the existence of the feeling, but rather the dealing with the feeling itself. Like when you have briyani chicken rice in a western country, what do you do with it? Do you eat it straight away or do you keep it at right place until the right time comes when you can truly enjoy its delicious taste nyam nyamm? Ape ni tetibe briyani. But I mean it. My anology maybe ridiculous but I mean every word. It is a heart-breaking struggle to not do things you really truly badly want to do...

The battle of heart and brain is the toughest part, they say. But it is actually a battle between imaan and nafs within one soul. You want to do it, but you know you can't. But you still want to do it, but your imaan says don't, but wait you heart says takpe je, but brain says no, let me think, but suddenly it reminds you of the evil of the nafsu but then whyyyy huwaaaaaaaaaaa

To those who are suffering this presently, this message is for you:

Be patient. Stay strong. Allah SWT knows. 

wallahu'alam. may Allah grant us more patience and strength, wassalamualaikum.