words of emotion

current situation in KMB;

pandang kiri kanan, kiri best student Kelantan. kanan lak best student Melaka. semua best students. so sape tak best ni? reflection mirror besar di toilet menjawab segalanya. menyesal pandang depan.

kehidupan di KMB tak semudah disangka. memang la tak pernah sangka apa apa tapi hm ntah la. semakin hari semakin banyak monolog dalaman yang terbit di lubuk sanubari ini. antara monolog dalaman yang feymes adalah

- kalau dulu, semua orang ade. cikgu ade. kawan ade. fasi ade. Cikgu Aini pun ade. cikgu kemain lagi. kelas tambahan sane sini. cikgu meleter, kita meleleh. tapi takpe. cikgu sabar je.

- kalau dulu, member stok selenger kambing dan unta. belajar memang pressure. tapi semua buat buat relax sebab tau semua sama sama tak berapa nak pandai.

- kalau dulu, result teruk tak ada la malu sangat. pandang kiri kanan atas bawah sambil berbisik dalam hati "GAGAL SAMA-SAMA, BERJAYA SORANG-SORANG. aku taknak keseorangan."

- kalau dulu, balik dorm okay lagi. mampu bernafas bergurau senda dengan rakan-rakan seperjuangan. homework ada, tapi rehat itu penting.

- kalau dulu, tak paham konsep ni takpe lagi. fasi kan banyak. nanti boleh tanya time study group. ciri ciri pelajar cemerlang tuuuu join study group.

- kalau dulu, homework tak siap tak ape. ramai lagi tak siap. bukan taknak buat. tak paham. rase nye satu batch tak paham ni.

- kalau dulu, seronokkknyeeeeeeeeeeeeee adeee batch comel macam ni!! baju batch pun gempakkk dohhhhhhhhhhh.

ahh ahhh rindu sangatttt :')

guys, IB is never easy. we heard this so many times yet so hard to be accepted. the fact that we were crazy kids in school before makes it hard for us now to be more serious and matured as college kids. and now semester exam is just around the corner. we know it will not be any easy. i don't know about you guys but test results are just deteriorating enough that i almost feel like quitting. inferiority grows day by day; looking how others' result are way better and sometimes, "weh impossible result kau gempak camtuh. manusia ke hapa ni." having so many Lydia Amiras here in KMB tak melenyapkan rasa rindu di hati instead inferiority mountains high. hmph.

but, we may be one. but we have 171 hearts in us.

idfc if we're in different classes, different friends and yeah, different batch, not Excell9 anymore. but one thing to be certain, we have to have the spirit once we had. remember all the obstacles and circumstances we face? results pay off all :) so why stop now. Integomb teachers are waiting to hear good news from us. our juniors are right there in school busting their heads off to get the same results of ours. not to neglect, our parents, sisters and brothers knowing we are this close, this close from overseas. so. we have to do this. there is no turning back. i wish to hear someday, somewhere, people will say

"result dia memang power do. dulu dia Integomb."